June is one of my favorite months of the year. The flowers in the yard are in full bloom, the grass is so green and smells delish and yes, school is over! I remember so well that amazing feeling of that last bell being rung and the overwhelming sense of satisfaction, happiness and anticipation of Summer.
I now have a senior and sophomore in high school. I can’t believe how fast time is flying by. Last night as Jack and I discussed plans for tonight’s junior/senior prom, I kept waiting for this overwhelming feeling of sadness to blow in, but it never came. Even after a cocktail with my partner in crime, Abbie, I just felt proud, peaceful and happy. Both my kids are almost fully-grown adults and they are so awesome. I know they’re mine and I might be a bit biased, but I watch them interact with family, friends, their teachers and peers and I can’t help but notice how kind, well-adjusted and articulate they are.
I’m starting to let go of all that working mother guilt I have been carrying around with me. I’m starting to see that my absences, my late nights and even those moments of not being too “present” were all ok. They were part of our process; they taught my kids to be self-sufficient, to speak up when they need something and ensure your voice is being heard. The nights spent obsessing about what kind of Mom am I, what am I forgetting this week and what are they going to say about me in therapy one day just might have been a ton of wasted time and negative energy.
Here’s what I know as I get ready to see Jack at his first prom and Ava is, as I write this, getting ready to meet a boy at the local pizza place: I did the best I could, I made mistakes and I had moments of sheer panic; but thru it all, I loved them fiercely and loudly and now I know they heard me loud and clear.
Happy June everybody!
Risa Barash, Founder & Owner & the entire Fairy Tales Hair Care Family